Will it be different?

Sometimes I'll think, will it make any difference if I'm still at Melbourne?
Will I be happier?
I'm not sure.
Sometimes, I'm just tired.
Sometimes, I feel like dying.
The thought of everything, I'm going through, I've been through, and things that I haven't go through.
Makes me tired.
I'm tired of everything.
In some point of life, you will see the truth of everything.
You'll see the true colors of your so called once a 'close friend', and even the true face of people who so call closed to you. Even people you trust the most, people who you loved the most.
Your heart just crippled, tore into pieces or even burnt into bits.
But then you're still alive, here, sitting in front of your laptop and blog about it.
This is why human is so great. God created people who have strong willpower enough to overcome all these.

If I sit down quietly and don't feel like talking, yes, don't disturb me.
This means that I don't have the mood to play or talk with you. So just leave me alone.
I'm tired of all these shit.
So please leave me alone.
I just need some space, some privacy. Just like when you are in a bad mood, you'll lock yourself up in your room. It's just the same thing. So please please please leave me alone.

I'm truly disappointed. Your words really hurts me badly.
Maybe I'm too sensitive.
But did you think of that before?
I don't have friends like you do you know.
Which friend will ever know how I feel? I mean, truly know how I feel.
Whenever I mentioned things that relates back to I miss Melbourne or I wanna go back to Melbourne, everyone will just say don't think about it, or whatever.
Since I don't really have any friends in Monash, I rely on you guys a lot you know. A LOT.
Because you guys are my family.
I know all of you will back me up whenever I'm falling.
But maybe because of this, I became more sensitive.
This makes me care more about the words you say or the way you talk.
And, I'm really disappointed.

The way you talk today hurts me badly.
I respect you as a sister and always treat you at my best.
But today, finally I know, that I'm such a burden to you.
Sorry to be such a burden.

Sometimes I feel like disappearing.
I wonder if it will be different if I'm not around.

He is back! :)

Finally daddy came back safely from his second and last trip to outer Mongolia.
He bought loads of our favorite sweets and smoked sardins (YUMMYLICIOUS).
He even bought copper bangles for three of us. :)

Saw the scar on his head.
Can't imagine when he fell into that some kinda hole and the metal slam on his head.
Blood ran down from the wound, all over his face, his shirt...
He even fainted for a few minutes.
At that moment, he thought that it's the end, he will never ever have the chance to come back home.
They ran out of plasters, and no proper medication or hospital.
Poor daddy...
Anyway, the wound heals fast as the weather there is quite cold.
And now, he is back in our arms. Reached home safely.

To those irresponsible people out there. Watch out.
Do listen to those experienced people.
They know more and experienced more than you do.
A pinch of laziness will harm not only you but others too.
Be more responsible and admit the fault that you've done.
If you, still keep on to that type of attitude, I believe, Karma will slap you back in your face one day.
Just WATCH OUT. :(

I saw that. - Karma 

Mistakes You Don't Want to Make in Your 20s.

Saw this from a website and feel that it is so meaningful.
Gonna share this to everyone who is in their 20s. :)

Click here to see all 20 mistakes. :)

Mistakes You Don't Want to Make in Your 20s.

• Working for money, not for building your dreams.
• Never do anything just because it’s convenient for you. Look to challenge yourself and build your own dream instead of building someone else’s. Even if it doesn’t exactly make sense now, create something with great value so you can cash out big. Always look to the future and never for immediate compensation. What are you going to do with those weekly wages anyways? Stop being so entitled and pretending like you deserve cash, prizes and vacations just yet. You will soon realize once you’ve made it that making money doesn’t make you happy. It’s the journey.

• Making friends instead of earning trust.
• The in-crowd may be tempting, but you’ll probably fall victim to surrounding yourself with social climbers and bottle whores. We know you feel entitled to celebrate, but please relax. It’s never attractive when you act as though this is the last time you’ll ever see this in life. Make connections with people based on trial and error, not presuppositions and drunk ranting about what they can do for your business. If you ever want people to take you seriously, then you have to take them seriously. Just because you think you trust someone doesn’t always mean you can. Heed any red flags in the past before jumping into any kind of venture with them.
• Not caring because you only live once — that is for fools.
• We all are guilty of irrational decision-making in our 20s. Fast people and fast times with money in your pocket always lead to over-extending yourself. A life of partying, heavy drugs and pretty much having that YOLO attitude will leave you flat on your ass. Get focused and lock into what you’re supposed to be doing. If you don’t know what that is, then you better figure it out ASAP.

• Making all your wants, needs.
• Expensive women and cheap thrills coupled with the expensive sneakers should not be on the list of your needs. Setting the foundation for your business and team is far more important than updating your wardrobe and chasing sex. Distinguish between what you want and what you actually need. Make sure your priorities are in fact or you will lose your track.

• Forgetting that family comes first.
• Those who supported you before anything deserve to be taken care of when you reach your success. If you aren’t doing this for the ones you love, then you’re not doing it right. Family comes first, no matter what happens. If you work for whom you love instead of just yourself, you will get far.

• Blaming anyone else but yourself for anything in life.
• Hold yourself accountable for everything. At the end of the day, all you have in the world is yourself — so go hard. Don’t look to anyone for answers and instead of making problems, create solutions. Whether it was that job you wanted, the funding you needed or the love you think you can’t live without, there is no one that can be held accountable in this universe except for you.
• Getting comfortable like you actually deserve down time.
• Unless you’re fornicating with Victoria’s Secret models in Monaco this weekend, you shouldn’t even be thinking about taking a break any time soon. You need a vacation? What have you accomplished? Mark Cuban spent 7 years building out his first business before he even took a break. Don’t get lazy now.
• Following the crowd instead of forging against it.
• You can be aware of the trends, but never follow them. If all your time is spent trying to adjust to your surroundings, you’ll get lost in the crowd all the more easily. Success and greatness are constructed by trendsetters themselves, not those who latched on to what’s currently trending. We hope that you don’t have any aspirations to look like your favorite rapper. Temptation to be influenced by those who you aspire to be like is easy, but no one finds their calling following in the footsteps of another.
• Failing to energize those around you.
• Although you may sometimes think there is a lack of talent in your networks — this is never the case. It is your sole responsibility to inspire, encourage and drive those around you to success. Failing to do so only confirms that you fall victim to that which you accuse others of. Change and greatness can be sparked everywhere, but bring it upon yourself to trigger it.
• Think you need to stop learning and growing.
• You have more zeros at the end of your bank statement, stamps in your passport and women in your bed than you had ever imagined. Don’t consider this your victory lap, but rather as a taste of greatness. Do you live to enjoy the moments you dreamed of or a lifetime of unimaginable success? The common misconception that once things are in your favor, you no longer have to put in the 3:00AM work hours is a dangerous problem. The fewer nights that you’re willing to put in the work, the fewer opportunities you will have to celebrate your achievements in the future.
• Forgetting about the piggy bank and spending every dollar you have.
• If our check is for $9, than we’re most likely spending $30. Between credit cards, school loans and every other avenue for attaining a quick dollar, our need for immediate gratification is worse than ever. The truth is it’s about making more money, not saving it. But at the same time, if you have no means for expanding your revenue channels then you must be able to save a few dollars here and there. No one like to have to walk to work because they blew every dollar at LAVO.
• Holding on to friends that waste your time and add no value to your life.
• You’ll be sucked down into the abyss right with them if you don’t cut the fat of the group. Family and friends could have been great to you as a child, but if they no longer hold the value and inspiration that is needed for you to thrive in life, then cut them loose. The only individuals you should be surrounding yourself with are those that challenge your ideas and motivate you to find the next solution to your problems. No, not the pessimistic assholes who shoot down your ideas with their negativity, but rather the ones who genuinely want to see you succeed no matter what you do in life.
• Forgetting that karma is a huge b*tch.
• Whether it’s burning bridges with people you loved, stealing your friend’s girlfriend, or plotting against an ex-partner, we must always remember that karma is the biggest b*tch we’ve ever met. There is nothing more true than the fact that whatever goes around comes around, and you are not immune to the cosmic forces that be. We’re not asking you to go on your Mother Teresa pilgrimage, but don’t be surprised when reality catches back up with you and brings you to your knees. Be a good person. You’ll get further in life.
• Mistaking safe sex for anything. 
• If you don’t want to have a child then you better limit your excuses. As vulgar as it may sound, sometimes there are only a few options in life, so you must avoid all potential margins of error. The road to success is not paved with having responsibilities of children and your future wife to be. This is a somewhat lonely journey that you must take by yourself and those you love will be able to celebrate with you after.

Sorry

It should be a happy Saturday night.
Our whole family should be enjoying our dinner at The Ship tonight for Mother's day pre-celebration.
Just because of me.
Sorry.
Sorry for ruining everything up.
Sometimes I really do feel useless though.
Sorry.

Good News from Mary Kay! :)

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Random

很多东西, 说了, 做了, 都收不回.

以前幼稚至极的行为, 话语, 动作, 不要再犯了.

是时候成熟些, 面对这现实的世界.

现在的生活, 除了念书, 还是念书.

还真无趣.

结束?

转校回来之后, 很多东西都一个人做.
吃饭, 上课, 回家.
都是一个人.
以前在澳洲觉得一个人其实很不错.
可是现在, 一个人, 不管去哪里, 做什么, 都显得好狼狈.
很难过, 很难过, 可是就是得压抑着那个情绪.
忍一忍. 很快就会结束了.
就多两年. 忍. 忍.

我们两个, 也冷战了好多天.
没说话了好多天.
有些不习惯, 可是却不想去依赖.
想去习惯一个人的感觉.
不然很害怕自己现在以后, 会撑不下去.
以前什么东西都会问你, 心情不好什么都会告诉你, 但我想, 现在是独自试试看, 一个人慢慢承担自己的事情.
以前上课不怎么专心也没关系, 有你在.
可是现在, 一个人, 做什么都要格外专心. 尤其是自己不是像那些孩子一样聪明的人, 更是要比他们努力上几倍才好.
你也有你自己的朋友圈子了.
所以有没有我, 在我看来, 好像也有些无所谓了.
我不是一个很好的朋友. 很爱乱发脾气, 要你学会成熟, 把你变得不是你似的.
很开心你找到属于你自己的朋友圈子.
以后就这样, 开开心心的.

自开学第一天开始, 除了读书, 还是读书.
生活, 挺无趣的.
没关系, 就变一个书呆子吧.

那天吐了三堆鲜血痰.
以为是牙龈流血了, 结果吐了多几次, 才发现原来是喉咙吐出来的.
我在想, 老天你又要折磨我了么.
回来念书, 我明白你要我坚强.
可是那些从喉咙吐出来的鲜血是什么意思呢.
老天, 不要在我有生存的意志的时候, 又把我击倒, 好吗?
我会怀疑我自己是否有那个能力坚持活下去到最后..

以前发生一些很不愉快的事情, 想死想疯了, 现在却看得好透彻.
死亡, 其实比想象的难面对, 不是么.

我还年轻, 还有好多好多事情未完成.
我还想, 活下去. :)