一个人

有时候   在想   是不是有些东西   现在就好开始慢慢习惯

反正以后的日子   渐渐就会成为那个模样

早些习惯   是否会更好?

:)

有时候会盯着你眼角那道伤疤看

会想象劳动节那天

你一个人坐在医院   头包着纱布   孤零零地   等着

那个场景   想了   偶尔会有些心疼

一个人   的确很不好受

还没习惯一个人以前   总觉得自己走到哪里都显得好狼狈

不像在澳洲的时候   只要戴上耳机   就可以自己一个   走到哪里都行

音乐   就就像一个防空洞一样

只要沉浸在其中   仿佛什么都可以变得无所谓

但现在
有一个大大个的避风港   就在我身边
感谢你的出现
我的防空洞. :)

When your heart doesn't tell the truth , pain will give you the answer.

Dance and Dinner Party.

:)

 With pretty Ledi and our head of contemp, Shu-Lyn. :)

Before performance.

During performance.

Finally.

All our hard work paid off.

Though it is imperfect but still, to me I feel that we have performed our best.

And, it is successful. :)

All those pain, cramp and blue-blacks are worth it.

Dancing are really fun.

It can help you to forget all your worries for a while.

Enjoy the music, feel the lyrics.

And express your feelings through your dance.

This. Is. Contemporary. :)

Had loads of fun.

Dancing.

Is still part of my life I guess.

:)

Practicing 'Bleeding Love'. :)

Prom Night.

Awesome prom night held at The Majestic Hotel.

The food is awesome.

BUT.

They clear off my dessert before I finish it.

:(

Me and boy miss the dessert.

With the pretty Gaga. :)

With my boy. :)

 Credits to boy. :)

It was really an awesome night.

Another special night to be remembered.

Thanks to Fang Yin for helping out with my make-up.

Thanks thanks thanks. :)

Life.

Personally love this picture a lot. :)

Took this picture outside my exam hall when I was still studying in Melbourne.

Edited a little bit on it's brightness and contrast. No added effect. 

In life we choose our own path.

Every decision contributes a little to our future pathway.

Every step forward we take now, is a step towards achieving something bigger,

and better than our current situation.

However,

Every step towards the goal

requires sacrifice, suffering and struggling. 

What we need to do, is to overcome all these.

What I really want, is to be a happier and optimistic girl.

I'm still working hard towards my goal.

I'm still learning, to count my blessings instead of my problems.

So please, do bear with me while I'm still learning.

Some bits of pieces of me are missing.

I'm imperfect.

But those imperfectness made me a true Winnie.

And I'm glad and blessed.

For what I am.

Happy-Winnie-wannabe. :)

Random.

在乎与不在乎之间   是否能够找到一个平衡点.

Rainbow. :)

 

 One year difference.

Year 1 and Year 2. 

I guess both of us grew fatter? :D

To be frank..
I miss our Year 1 life a lot.
A LOT.
Read your full-of-spiderweb blog again and again.
And what really catches my eyes is this very particular sentence 'Everybody changes and this is life.'

I still remember, I notice this very special girl since day 1 in Sunway.
Never ever cross my mind that my first year in uni will be that 'colorful'.
Because a girl name Rainbow walked in my life since that day.
When I first saw her, the first thought of me is.....
'Why this girl so weird? Say hi to everyone in uni and introduce herself and asked people's number so randomly?'
And later on, she walked to me and say....
'Hi, my name is Rainbow. What's your name? Nice to meet you.'
Plus a handshake.
Haha.
And at that time, I was kinda shocked..
And I thought that 'Oh my, this weird girl is talking to me.....'
But later on, she accompanied me for lunch and taught me econs as I entered uni during week 2.
She treated me really good. Really really really good.

My first impression when she taught me econs is: Wow, this girl is so clever.
I still remember that she teach me how to differentiate demand and supply curve and how price changes will effect those curves.
She is really really patient.
Sometimes when I don't understand what the lecturer is teaching in Melbourne and don't really feel like disturbing my friends, I kinda miss her very much.

Miss those times when we were forced to consult our lecturer or tutor,
we will stand by outside the office and push each other to knock on the door and walk in the office.
Miss those times when I get mad, I'll get to eat my favorite waffle with peanut butter and chocolate.
Miss those times when I go to Klang without my mum's permission just to have a nap on her bed.
Tho everytime I'll be really stressed up worrying that my mum will call up anytime.
And after wandering around Klang, she'll drop me to the KTM station and I'll take the KTM back to the Subang Jaya station and take the Mini Bus back to Pyramid and walk back to uni.
Wow, thinking back this makes me feel that I really do have the energy to run here and there just for a nap on a bed.
I even accompanied her for a whole afternoon just for the sake of a dentist appointment. Haha!
I miss everything.
Everything during Year 1.
Tho my life now is not that bad.
But sometimes when something triggers your heart, you'll miss all those old fun moments.

Thanks for visiting me in Melbourne.
And thanks for accepting me for who I am.
Do you know why everytime I will thank you when I'm serious?
Cause sometimes I feel that, without you, I won't have achieved what I had now.
I might not have the opportunity to study in Melbourne Uni and might not be one of the members of Golden Key.
There's so many things that I might not be able to achieve if you were not there.
Thank you girl.

I really do appreciate you as a bestie.
Sorry for throwing in all the tantrums all these while.
And thanks for bearing my bad temper.
Maybe we've changed. But think about the brighter side.
Maybe we've changed for a better future.

I'll keep my word. Won't let any stupid rumors start anymore.
Stay happy, like a Rainbow.

Love you sua de, Cheah Cheah Cheah, Bazang, pig head and our dearest Rainbow mama. :)
Let's keep this friendship going.
It is still a long journey to go.
Let's keep going, on and on and on.
From your Winnie daughter. :)

Random

Went for badminton with his favorite friend.
Was kinda awkward at start but it is still fun tho.
Finally get to de-stress through exercising.
It's been such a long time since I last exercise.
Great to feel the sweat all over my body.
Felt healthy.
And happy of course. :)

Thanks for fetching and dropping me from and to my house.
Sometimes I felt so bad troubling you to come all the way from your place.
But what to do....... :(
Parents still doesn't allow me to drive.
BOO. :(

Did not warm up before playing badminton and end up straining my right hand's muscle.
Rawr... My right hand hurts so much now. Aiks.
But will definitely have a good sleep tonight. :)

Puppies kinda like him.
Naww....... :)

Okay, Serious matters now..
Two more assignments, one presentation and another mid term to go.
Can't wait for prom night to come.
Can't wait to see my handsome boy in suits. :)
Life just have so many things to look forward for. :)

Putrajaya.

 Finally, Putrajaya on a good weather. :)

The scenary can be really awesome.
Tranquil environment.

Thanks for bringing me here.
Really felt comfortable.
And.
Happy of course.
:)

A small pic of us. :)

Random.

Finally, 2 heavy subject's mid-term is over.
Was so happy after walking out from the lecture hall.
Went to a so called 'dating' with Mr James in Pyramid later on. :)
Was in a really good mood, eating my favorite waffle tho having horrible headache.
HOWEVER, received mum's message and the mood flew from up to down.

I really hate to receive those kind of messages when I'm really in a good mood or when I'm prepared to study.
It really makes me moody and discouraging.
I'm really really really...
Tired of it.
Sick of it.
But somehow, I tried to keep my smile on my face.
Not to ruin our happy date... :)

So..
Went home and called up our dear Rainbow.
And..
I cried on the phone for so long.
She thought that I was fooling her but ya.
I was serious.
Maybe I'm just too stressed up these few days.
Din really have a good sleep for almost a month plus horrible headache these few weeks.
Stress mid-term, stress studies.
And ended up exploding in the phone.
Felt better after hanging up the phone.
Maybe there are still some problems that can't be solved at the moment.
What I really can do is to wait time to pass.

Well, life..... :(
We don't really have a choice I guess.

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喜欢被你牵着手的感觉   很有安全感
虽然两个人的手心一直在冒汗
但这样   感觉更真实. :)

疲惫

今天  不知道为什么 整个人疲惫得很
头疼得不轻  也许又是因为昨晚睡不好的关系吧

有时候 会在想 自己到底在拼什么
很怀疑自己的能力 也很怀疑自己的力量
突然感觉好累
我到底 能做好些什么
突然好沮丧
自己总是不停地令身边的人失望 伤心 难过 生气
偶尔 会怀疑自己生存的目的 原因 理由

像一颗棉花糖
只要温度稍微升高些 就完全融化
完全 剩下的只有那焦了半边 的棉花糖
我承认自己就是如此的脆弱
我承认自己就是那么地坚强不起来

那些逞强又虚假的笑容
那份笑容背后的感觉 只有最真心的人 才看得透 那个假象

我只想说   我真的累了
好想好好睡一觉
睡一个不会被惊醒   不会有恶梦来打扰的好觉
想要的就是那么简单   一个安稳的觉
是否因为一直寻觅   而越实践不了?

ATTACHED. :)

Winnie is now unavailable...
I'm ATTACHED! To Mr James. :)

现在的我 想好好地把握目前拥有的幸福.
想好好地保护这一段感情.
当然   还是会注重学业.
毕竟不可以因为拥有了爱情   而忽略应该注重的东西.

Mr James:
我们   牵了手   就不要轻易放手   好么? :)
要一直这样   幸福下去.

希望你的未来里   会一直有个叫郑韵妮的女孩存在.
伴随你   让你远离孤单   天天开心幸福的.

9月6日   我们幸福的开始. :)

*P.S: A picture from tumblr. :)

Random

不知道为什么, 心 有些乱.
啊 不想了不想了.
东西想三次就不要想了.

要记住9月6日 在天台上的感觉.
那份幸福 那份安全感.
还有, 那个笑容.

Melbourne moments.

I remembered those days when I'm so into the 'Mario' like game.

AWESOME photo took by Charmaine. :)

 We took this photo after my birthday celebration from Joomak.

Credits to Bryan for this panaroma photo of us.

Run here and there just to take this photo in front of Melbourne Central.

Those memories just made me laugh. :)

 Aunt Jane was walking us to the bus stop.

Miss those days when we get to taste those awesome home made curry puff and devil's curry by Aunt Jane.

Photo credits to Charmaine. :)

Wandering around Dookie campus during our lunch break.

I miss the place tho we need to bath with hard water which tangled our hair so badly.

Dookie Dookie. Still an awesome place to be. :)

Photo credits by Charmaine. 

现在的生活过得并非无趣
认识了他后 日子变得很精彩
至少不再那么沉闷 不再感受到孤独
我会珍惜我们腻在一起的时光
你毕业后 不知道日子会是怎样的呢
没人愿意陪伴我到晚上了
没人陪我看日落边聊天
又会回到当初的时候吧
一个人 傻呆呆地 等时间过去吧

有时侯看着你的脸 总会觉得你的眼神尽是忧郁和沧桑
很想为你的生活添上色彩   让你开心些
偶尔看你尽情地笑   开心地开怀大笑
就会觉得特开心
不知道为什么总想起那天   在加油站在车里等你   看着你走来车的时候
你就这样看着我边走来边笑了
那是一个我不解   但却很灿烂的笑容
很奇怪 就总是想起那个笑容

感恩縁份让我们认识彼此.
真的. :)

朱镇坤  朱镇坤  朱镇坤!
要开心.   :)

Random.

今天  突然特别地想念外婆.

James's Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES! :)

He looked happy and smile almost throughout the day! 

 Looking smart on his birthday!

You really look good too! :)

(*Blueblack on muh knees caused by my awesome contemp class. )

It was James's birthday yesterday. 31st of August! Malaysia Independence day as well!
So, he picked me up at IOI and we head to Taman Tun for lunch.
Pizza Uno. Awesome Aglio Olio.
Should've pay for his birthday meal but ended up this birthday boy insisted to pay for our awesome lunch.
Felt so bad. :(
Gonna treat him a good one during my birthday in return! :)

Then we head to Putrajaya.
Wanted to sit around the lake to enjoy the environment there but too bad it rained heavily so we were forced to head back to Paradigm for our movie.
Watched 'We're the Millers'.
The comedy is sooo funny that a couple who sat beside us laughed non-stop tho haha.

After the movie we head to Bandar Utama for his birthday cake. Secret Recipe.
And he drop me home later on cause was called up and scolded by mum.
I guess I went out for too long hours?
12noon till 8pm. Hmm..
Did not really reach home that late before.
But anyway, it is worth it.
We enjoyed the day don't we? :)

Glad that you felt blessed and happy to have me.
I'm glad to have you as well.
Thanks for everything.
The happiness and accompaniment that you've gave all these while, I really do appreciate much.
Just want you to know that James, you're awesome. :)

Looking forward for our next day trip to Sekinchan.
Imma happy girl!