Random.

Finally, 2 heavy subject's mid-term is over.
Was so happy after walking out from the lecture hall.
Went to a so called 'dating' with Mr James in Pyramid later on. :)
Was in a really good mood, eating my favorite waffle tho having horrible headache.
HOWEVER, received mum's message and the mood flew from up to down.

I really hate to receive those kind of messages when I'm really in a good mood or when I'm prepared to study.
It really makes me moody and discouraging.
I'm really really really...
Tired of it.
Sick of it.
But somehow, I tried to keep my smile on my face.
Not to ruin our happy date... :)

So..
Went home and called up our dear Rainbow.
And..
I cried on the phone for so long.
She thought that I was fooling her but ya.
I was serious.
Maybe I'm just too stressed up these few days.
Din really have a good sleep for almost a month plus horrible headache these few weeks.
Stress mid-term, stress studies.
And ended up exploding in the phone.
Felt better after hanging up the phone.
Maybe there are still some problems that can't be solved at the moment.
What I really can do is to wait time to pass.

Well, life..... :(
We don't really have a choice I guess.

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喜欢被你牵着手的感觉   很有安全感
虽然两个人的手心一直在冒汗
但这样   感觉更真实. :)

疲惫

今天  不知道为什么 整个人疲惫得很
头疼得不轻  也许又是因为昨晚睡不好的关系吧

有时候 会在想 自己到底在拼什么
很怀疑自己的能力 也很怀疑自己的力量
突然感觉好累
我到底 能做好些什么
突然好沮丧
自己总是不停地令身边的人失望 伤心 难过 生气
偶尔 会怀疑自己生存的目的 原因 理由

像一颗棉花糖
只要温度稍微升高些 就完全融化
完全 剩下的只有那焦了半边 的棉花糖
我承认自己就是如此的脆弱
我承认自己就是那么地坚强不起来

那些逞强又虚假的笑容
那份笑容背后的感觉 只有最真心的人 才看得透 那个假象

我只想说   我真的累了
好想好好睡一觉
睡一个不会被惊醒   不会有恶梦来打扰的好觉
想要的就是那么简单   一个安稳的觉
是否因为一直寻觅   而越实践不了?

ATTACHED. :)

Winnie is now unavailable...
I'm ATTACHED! To Mr James. :)

现在的我 想好好地把握目前拥有的幸福.
想好好地保护这一段感情.
当然   还是会注重学业.
毕竟不可以因为拥有了爱情   而忽略应该注重的东西.

Mr James:
我们   牵了手   就不要轻易放手   好么? :)
要一直这样   幸福下去.

希望你的未来里   会一直有个叫郑韵妮的女孩存在.
伴随你   让你远离孤单   天天开心幸福的.

9月6日   我们幸福的开始. :)

*P.S: A picture from tumblr. :)

Random

不知道为什么, 心 有些乱.
啊 不想了不想了.
东西想三次就不要想了.

要记住9月6日 在天台上的感觉.
那份幸福 那份安全感.
还有, 那个笑容.

Melbourne moments.

I remembered those days when I'm so into the 'Mario' like game.

AWESOME photo took by Charmaine. :)

 We took this photo after my birthday celebration from Joomak.

Credits to Bryan for this panaroma photo of us.

Run here and there just to take this photo in front of Melbourne Central.

Those memories just made me laugh. :)

 Aunt Jane was walking us to the bus stop.

Miss those days when we get to taste those awesome home made curry puff and devil's curry by Aunt Jane.

Photo credits to Charmaine. :)

Wandering around Dookie campus during our lunch break.

I miss the place tho we need to bath with hard water which tangled our hair so badly.

Dookie Dookie. Still an awesome place to be. :)

Photo credits by Charmaine. 

现在的生活过得并非无趣
认识了他后 日子变得很精彩
至少不再那么沉闷 不再感受到孤独
我会珍惜我们腻在一起的时光
你毕业后 不知道日子会是怎样的呢
没人愿意陪伴我到晚上了
没人陪我看日落边聊天
又会回到当初的时候吧
一个人 傻呆呆地 等时间过去吧

有时侯看着你的脸 总会觉得你的眼神尽是忧郁和沧桑
很想为你的生活添上色彩   让你开心些
偶尔看你尽情地笑   开心地开怀大笑
就会觉得特开心
不知道为什么总想起那天   在加油站在车里等你   看着你走来车的时候
你就这样看着我边走来边笑了
那是一个我不解   但却很灿烂的笑容
很奇怪 就总是想起那个笑容

感恩縁份让我们认识彼此.
真的. :)

朱镇坤  朱镇坤  朱镇坤!
要开心.   :)

Random.

今天  突然特别地想念外婆.

James's Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES! :)

He looked happy and smile almost throughout the day! 

 Looking smart on his birthday!

You really look good too! :)

(*Blueblack on muh knees caused by my awesome contemp class. )

It was James's birthday yesterday. 31st of August! Malaysia Independence day as well!
So, he picked me up at IOI and we head to Taman Tun for lunch.
Pizza Uno. Awesome Aglio Olio.
Should've pay for his birthday meal but ended up this birthday boy insisted to pay for our awesome lunch.
Felt so bad. :(
Gonna treat him a good one during my birthday in return! :)

Then we head to Putrajaya.
Wanted to sit around the lake to enjoy the environment there but too bad it rained heavily so we were forced to head back to Paradigm for our movie.
Watched 'We're the Millers'.
The comedy is sooo funny that a couple who sat beside us laughed non-stop tho haha.

After the movie we head to Bandar Utama for his birthday cake. Secret Recipe.
And he drop me home later on cause was called up and scolded by mum.
I guess I went out for too long hours?
12noon till 8pm. Hmm..
Did not really reach home that late before.
But anyway, it is worth it.
We enjoyed the day don't we? :)

Glad that you felt blessed and happy to have me.
I'm glad to have you as well.
Thanks for everything.
The happiness and accompaniment that you've gave all these while, I really do appreciate much.
Just want you to know that James, you're awesome. :)

Looking forward for our next day trip to Sekinchan.
Imma happy girl!